lost~

hm, last semester in inti nilai
life is greater than b4..
party party and party.
i love party all the times, no matter club or home party.
seriously i will be more prefer home party because everyone is so close and so friendly..
thats was so sweet ya!!!!!
recently i met a group of young guys..they are look mature and strong but atcually only 19 years old
one of them which is my best friend's bf...
haha...
they are so loving each other, i cant help to envy them, because i noe that i may not having this..
kakaka...

should i stay kl or back to jb
i donnoe why i was hesitated...
because of him?
because of him thats why i don really wan to stay jb
i try to escape the fact, i try to avoid any chances that we possible to argue
i don willing to face the problem that we expected b4..
seriously, i feel fucking sucks of doing all this..
the relation had been changed.
wat to do...
i donne who can i share with..
and i don wan to sharing this with others,
because i noe that the opinion that others give mi always be negative.
persuave mi to give up...
but i really don wish to give up, but like u say, realiti is really very cruel,
either we face it or either we give up
everytime i was thinking am i wasting my time, seriously, i don feel it at all
this is wat u tell mi, and pushing mi to other guys..
i can together with any guy tat i want..
but you're thinking too much.....
the only thing i wan is juz u to be with mi....
but sounds like we're argue the same thing for all the times...
but the fact cannot be changed, because u got ur own problem
i don want to thinking so much..
i don want to making myself so hard..
thats it...

where should i go~